It's been a bit of a rough week around here, hence my absence. All week long I've had this sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach, and many tears have been shed despite my best intentions to not worry about things I don't have control over. What seemed like a wise financial investment a year ago, has suddenly turned out to be a nightmare. I don't like to write about money problems because it just seems awkward, but I'll just say that sometimes things don't work out the way you hope they would and leave it at that.
Adding to my overall feelings of disappointment is the fact that summer is ending and so Jason is heading back to work. Over the past three years I've gotten better at gearing up for the school year, especially since it means I get to go back to teaching my classes again (which doesn't seem like work for as much fun as it is), but it's still an adjustment having Jason gone all day after having him home for nearly two months. The beginning of the school year combined with soccer practice and games makes those days especially long, but it'll be okay. I'm not going down the "change is good" route, but change is inevitable so best to face it with as cheery a heart as possible.
Rather than dwell on what isn't, let me share with you what is.
What is nice is that Amanda thought of me this week and nominated me for the "Nice Matters Award." You know how when you're having a no good, terrible day and something good happens to you and you start to cry because the feeling of something nice is so unexpected and comforting? That's what Amanda's thoughtfulness did for me. I don't know how many of you read Amanda's blog, but let me tell you one of the most joyous blogging experiences for me is reading about her process of adopting a child. She and her husband are in the midst of this amazing journey, and just as the lovely blinking button says on her blog's sidebar, they are "paper pregnant." A more lovely, thoughtful, amazing, beautiful couple you cannot imagine, and I'm already praying for their little child who will someday be in their arms. Someday, the London Southern Belle will move up my sidebar into the category of 'Mommy Bugs,' and that will be a day worth celebrating. Hugs across the Atlantic to you, Amanda. xx
And now that I'm all teary and weepy, I must tell you what else has been nice around here.
Here she's playing it off as no big deal, but you should have seen her jumping around outside after she got them. "I love my sunglasses!" We may have overstressed the importance of keeping her glasses safe because when we went to the grocery store she took them off and tried to hand them to us. "I don't want to break them," she said. "I better wear my old glasses so these don't fall off."
It took quite a bit of convincing that she could, in fact, wear these around like her old glasses. She still doesn't quite understand the whole concept of transitional lenses because she thought she couldn't wear them inside, but after a lengthy explanation--involving my highly scientific explanation of "magic glasses!"--she is adjusting to her new frames.
Other nice things from the past week:
- Going to see Bourne Ultimatum opening weekend. Jason and I have had THREE movie nights this summer. That's more than we've had all year. Bourne Ultimatum was fabulous and I highly recommend it. Even though we had to sit in the third row (because we underestimated the movie going crowd in Battle Ground) it was still the best movie we've seen this summer (for whatever that's worth since the only other movies we've seen are Die Hard and Harry Potter).
- Going to an adults only birthday party last Saturday. Heels, painted toes, sassy dress (a dress! no worries about nursing a baby!), and sangria. Fun conversation and tasty food at Aqui Mexican Cafe made for a lovely evening.
- A morning at OMSI and an afternoon at IKEA with my siblings.
- A long phone conversation with a dear friend who lives in the Middle East.
- Receiving back issues of Martha Stewart Kids from my MIL.
- Meeting with an architect about designing our dream home (in light of the events from the past week this seems like an impossibility now, but it was nice at the time).
- Storytime at the library. Miss Connie and Miss Karen are the best librarians EVER. Love them.
- Getting my hair cut short. Not super short, but at least four inches off. Never underestimate the power of a new haircut.
But before I cut my hair, we had family pictures taken:
No matter how stressed, how poor, how saddened and disappointed I get, at the end of the day I have my family. And that's the nicest thing of all.